Barred from Nature

Noise, it's everywhere...

I'm not speaking of sounds... but noise. In this city there is really no escaping it.

Within, it's even worse...

I went to bed thinking about my wife that I have yet to meet...does she exist? woke up for work this morning, once again, thinking about her, whoever she is...

Went to walk in the park for thought, seclusion, serenity more like it... couldn't find her.

But, plans for something 'better' did arrive...just the concepts, who knows if they will actually be.

Partially frozen lake, Geese walk on it's surface as the 'miracle of Jesus'.

I want her, I feel within myself the growing desire to be with her, just to be around her, to know that her company is here... to feel the warmth of her being in this chilly setting. I send my energy out to her... who knows if the Prime Cause allowed it to reach her between our physical distance and knowledge of recognizing each other. I wonder if our minds can connect telepathically, or are we just that distant, that I wont be able to connect as was born in me to connect with her as of recent.

What does she think like? Are any of her thoughts concerning me? Does she seek me or is she happy looking into the face of another? If I see her can I talk to her freely and open?

Nature, we all seem jailed from it. To express as we must, to commune freely, without fear of another's judgment, without fear of tripping over a tree root, that when we hit the ground and we raise our head up and focus our vision on that thing which caused us to momentarily stumble, we find the most beautiful sight of earth, full of it's greens, and lavenders, and violets; we adjust ourselves comfortably on the ground, breathe in deeply taking in the sun light pattered through the tree leaves above, exhaling- though evident, seems non-existent for we are too busy taking in the connection and bliss, centering it within ourselves- becoming one... with the very thing that caused us to fall... or was it a fall at all? Embrace it... communicate with it, whatever may be in the depths of your soul.

This is our relationship with people, as well... Yet most of us let ourselves become barred from 'Nature'.